For a couple weeks in the middle of my time here in Israel, I got used to what I was seeing. The novelty of everything was kinda lost on me and I was mad, sad, confused, and disappointed with myself. We’d go for hikes and I wouldn’t get shivers from the view like I had before. My school classes were getting tedious and sometimes I felt a little bit lonely. Israel Core Course, my main class where we learn about Jewish history, was lost on me for a little bit (which is hard to believe now because it’s absolutely the best part of this program). I was homesick, missing my family, my friends, and working at THE GARAGE every week. I was listening to a lot of Andrew Bird and Cloud Cult. I was trying to conjure up the wonder they had for the world in their lyrics, and how I could apply that to my time here.
Then something switched. I realized I had only a month and a half left here and that this trip here is an experience I can’t just sit on.
I started meeting more people in my program, actually having conversations about life, about what we were learning. I jumped on every opportunity I got to go experience Israeli life, and started paying attention to what songs that I really liked on the radio. I wrote the names down of Israeli books I wanted to buy before I leave so I can keep my Hebrew up at home.
I actually started using my Hebrew. I’ve been learning it since I was 5, and can understand it pretty fluently, but I don’t speak it enough. So I started trying to have conversation with my cab drivers and with vendors at stores. I’m getting better every day.
These are the types of things I’ve been trying to do–to stop wallowing and put myself out there. Right now I have less than a month left. After all, one of my favorite quotes from my favorite play, The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams is, “Time is the longest distance between two places.” Also from the same play, “In memory, everything seems to happen to music.” So listen with me as I try not to let time erase the memories I have yet to make.
“Clouds” by Zach Sobiech
“Giving Up The Gun” by Vampire Weekend
“5 Years Time” by Noah and the Whale
“Wait So Long (Trampled by Turtles Cover)” by Motion City Soundtrack
“Friday I’m in Love” by The Cure
“Sing Me Spanish Techno” by The New Pornographers
“When I’m With You” by Best Coast